more than words!

i had written abt how much sense a moment of confusion makes...and its jst sad that we ignore that thinking saying it doesn't make sense...
its many times, more than one thought that makes sense...bt u dnt wanna believe it...u banish it...bt it stays there...and u never lose it completely...atleast i don't!
i lived thru with sumthing thinking i didn't wanna believe in...bt in the back of my mind...i never gave up...i still believed in it..being true...without ever thinking...or realising it was or wasn't...and today it stares me in the face...and it feels the same...i knew it was here...i jst chose to never think abt it....to conciously believe in it...
bt today i do...and i know this is the truth...and nothing bt the truth...coz there's nothing like it...nothing that makes me feel alive and love life so much...and wait for tomorrow!

time...

Wats the one thing most important in life...time or money? the argument continues forever...bt i think its time...its worth everything u have and worth everything u'll ever have...
ne which ways u see it - all u buy with money is also time...time to believe that you were young, were beautiful, were in an earlier life, a time that u cud do wat u wanted...so its jst a matter of time...
so instead of spending today, working like a dog - staying away from family, keeping time away from friends, live today so dat u can live better tomm...for a tomm, when u miss today...
how is tht ever worth it...

Sumtimes...we jst start doing things so different...we forget who we really were...and those thigns become so much of us..till we forget why we were doing them in the very first place...u love it...u can't imagine ur life any other way...people around u percieve u like that..and u are happy abt it...
till u start losing it...making excuses abt it...bt its a thing u liked right...then u give more explanations...nt a good day...sum other day...till the excuses run out...then u try to actually get at it...u can't...and u don't understand why...u get cranky, extremely cranky...confused and irritated...and u dnt still dnt know why...and then suddenly in a million but one moment of absolute haze..it all starts to make sense...
u cannot be who u are not...its jst a matter of time...our inner lives and beings always come out...its impossible to be moulded forever...dat only happens in love...and only once...
i am not in love...this is not me...these aren't the things i do...i will now find myself back...bt is it worth it???
maybe only time can tell...bt i know its easy to be lost...infact that's exactly where i am heading...